Do you have times in your life when you bite off more than you can chew? I do. In fact, I am the Queen of biting off more than I can chew. I don’t know why I do it, I just do it. It’s not that I think I can do anything, rather it’s more along the lines of I’ve got to try. My friend Sue believes that I am brave enough to try anything. Wrong. My friend Mary believes I can do just about anything. Wrong. My friend Barbara has known me since I was eighteen years old and she knows I am a gifted in the art of fake-it-till-you-make-it. Sometimes I bite off a mouthful because I don’t think I can afford to pay someone else to do whatever it is I want done. I’m, kind of cheap that way. My husband would tell you I do it because I don’t think anyone else could do it the way I want it done. Tsk tsk. I thought he knew me better than that. There are very few things I do that can’t be done better by Anyone else. I understand me better than anyone else does and that makes explaining what I want (and how I want it) a lot easier when no one else is involved.
With that said, perhaps it would be better if I could step out in faith and pay someone to bring my projects to life instead of struggling to do it myself. For example, the curtains I just made for my living room and dining room. I put that project off for over a year before I got the nerve to start. I just couldn’t cut the fabric, a beautiful piece, by the way, that I purchased at a phenomenal price. Picture this, gorgeous up-graded burlap style with a French postage print. It was originally $38/yard. Omygoodness. I could never pay that! So I waited and waited and waited till it went on sale for 50% off. Then I went to the fabric store on ‘Old-Lady-Day’ and saved another 15% on my dream fabric. (Senior citizen discounts are the bomb!) Just think – 65% off! How cool is that? It is so beautiful that I couldn’t bear to touch it for fear that I would ruin it.
Fast forward a little over a year. I’d put it off long enough so I began to plan how I would manage to bring my project to fruition. I searched online and found some room darkening fabric curtain panels at such a low price, taking them apart so that I could use them in my own curtain project wasn’t a problem. I’m not ‘shamed to say I’m cheap! Even if they aren’t exactly the right color…The back won’t show, right?
Now do you see why it might be a good idea for me to actually pay someone else to do the work for me?? I’ll cut to the chase and tell you exactly how it went. I cut the fabric into four nice 90 inch pieces. I took apart the room darkening panels. then I got in the floor with one of the expensive fabric panels and covered it with one of the el cheapo fabric panels. I cut them to the same size, pinned them together and sewed up the top and both sides. I then ironed the seams flat and clipped on the rings that would suspend them from the new curtain rods (which I bought at Kohl’s online using my ebates account at a 6% rebate! I’m so cheap.) I learned a good lesson when it comes to ironing. If the iron is too hot, it will melt your room darkening fabric.
Here is where the comedy begins. The new curtain rods, oh Sweet Jesus, why do things have to be so complicated? Let us just say that after a long effort and several practice runs, I managed to get the brackets up. It was touch and go there for a while. I took them down, made some adjustments, put them back up. To say nothing of me on a ladder – not good. It seemed to be a never ending series of errors. But I got it done. Yep. May not be perfect, but it’s done. Except that I ran out of that really expensive, gorgeous, high-end burlap fabric with the French post script on it. Yeah. I did. Each window needs at least another panel. *sigh.
But the curtains are up and of course, my good God didn’t let me get very far in the process without a lesson or two thrown in. He is so good that way. Don’t you love it? As I was taking apart and sewing together, I was reminded of Job, a book in the Old Testament. The devil was on the hunt looking for someone he could bring down. He badgered God and hounded Him, taunting Him that he could turn a believer into his own disciple. Poor Job, he was really in for it. He went through so many devastating trials, any ordinary man would have keeled over under lesser circumstances. Scripture tells he was a faithful man but he was human as well. He had his doubts from time to time. He was shaken to his core. Over and over, his friends tried to convince him that God had forgotten him, sacrificed him, turned him over to die. But Job was wise in not listening to them. He knew that God would not forsake him. And God proved that He is faithful, even when we have our trials and tribulations. Even when we have to start over. Even when we make mistakes, become discouraged, feel like giving up, when nothing fits, the seams aren’t equal, we can’t seem to measure up. Even when we think we have bitten off more than we can chew.
The lesson is to prevail, to keep doing what you have to to get the end result you want. And beyond that, the lesson is to trust, to believe, and to have faith. God is a good God. We human beings have trashed the world He has given us. We and our ancestors have poisoned, plundered, and murdered the paradise He put together with His spoken word. Yet, He still loves us. Every one of us is beloved to him. It doesn’t matter who you are or what you have done. He absolutely loves you, purely and faithfully.
How do we repay him? Do we do as Job’s friends suggested and turn our back on our Maker when the going gets rough? Or do we offer ourselves, time and talent to the One who promises unending love, security, and peace? Do we work for Him and with Him? Or do we run into the world, away from our troubles and refusing to help anyone else in dire circumstances? You know, trouble will follow you. Running away won’t change a thing. Ask Job, he knows.
As I was studying for this post, I came across several scriptures that relate to God’s love for us. If you are led to, read the book of Job. The ending is worth it! Then do yourself a favor and read Psalm 139. Awesome. That kind of reading will make a believer out of you! If you don’t know already, you will see that God has it all worked out for you.
“For I know well the plans I have for you, plans for your welfare and not for woe, as to give you a future of hope. When you call me, and come and pray to me, I will listen to you. When you look for me, you will find me, yes when you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me …” Jeremiah 29: 11-14.
I was surprised to realize that I haven’t posted anything since November. Wow it was a busy year end! We had our annual Grandchildren’s Christmas party on Dec. 27th and man, was that a blast! I’m thinkin’ one of God’s plans for me was to be somebody’s grandmother. That’s a good thing because it has always been my favorite dream. Back to the year end – we had a beautiful celebration on Christmas eve with some dear friends; dinner and exchange of gifts preceded by a rosary. It was a holy and heartfelt celebration. Santa wasn’t invited but the Holy Spirit was! Although I missed my grown children and all my other relatives spread across these United States, this Christmas season was spectacular in the area of spirituality. I have a lot to be thankful for. The Hubs, our home, our Lord. We have blessings that are never ending. I found out I have a brain tumor. It is not cancer and I won’t need surgery unless it begins to grow. Take that you old devil ~ I’m standing with Job and giving thanks and praise to the One who sustains and heals!
Now to make another couple of curtains…
Don’t forget to pray for peace y’all.